What is the difference?
I trust the guide. Between my in-laws (his patrons) and his teacher I know that they are making the best choices for him. It puts me in the unique position (especially as a homeschooling mom) to sit back and celebrate with him. I don't stress about what he "should" be doing and when - because I don't know. I can't critique his work well so I just enjoy it for what it is. I can see that he is improving in his own ways because I am not comparing him to some other standard in my head.
What if I did this more with my children? What if I focused on celebrating how far they have come instead of fretting over what I know they don't know - yet? What if I just trusted someone who has been at it longer than I have and followed their steps - instead of constantly trying to create my own path? What if I was more of a cheerleader instead of a fault finder? What if I made choices out of love and joy instead of fear of what he is missing, or doesn't know?
The truth is, in the end, I really don't know what my child's path will be. However, I know the one who does. Am I leaning into His wisdom and grace and love for my son? Am I trusting that He is a good guide, so I can enjoy the journey? Am I rejoicing in who this child is and how God has made him - uniquely - not in the snowflake way - but in the sense that God doesn't make mistakes and knows this child better than I do. Do I trust too much on my own understanding (often founded in fear) to the peril of our relationship? Why do I not trust the one who created him and promises a "good plan" - not an easy, happy go lucky one - but a good one in the truest sense of the word?
Sometimes, being in the dark has its advantages. This has been a sweet surprise for me - the trying -to - retire - control freak.